it was one of the school weeks again. this week was really extinguished. i had to do alot. especially for English and Mother Tongue as the oral are drawing nearer. WRCD is also coming on 7 May. i really had alot of homework. today was quite a relief from all the stress at school. the weekends are tomorrow and NSSL are next week. we are training for the both days of the weekend. i really hope tomorrow is happening. if it is not, i will train myself then coz the team cannot cooperate. we are all in this together. the whole team. so, if we fail i would kill all of them. i am so looking forward to next week's event. the big match. but above all, our team had not really train and i am going to make them really train this weekend. i don't care if the are tired. sportsman never get tired and i am saying never tired means not a little tired can stop us. unlike we are dead tired then we stop. nothing can stop us from training. even if Feroz could not come, we would carry on with the match as we understand Feroz' condition. i really, really hope to train this two days of weekend!
No hugs today. I sent her home with no goodbye hugs. It was meant to be a norm. I don't know what her reason was but it didn't really matter. Although through that, i am starting to suspect something amiss. The topic of the incident (previous post) was brought up again in BK while we were having late dinner. Things she said that i realised: 1) it was my fault to have kept things from her 2) it was my fault that things are worse off now than before 3) it's as though she wants me out I don't know what to infer. I mean as best as i could, i would do everything right and treat her right. But of course, i'm only human that makes mistakes like texting a girl behind her back and still keeps her secrets (what a douche!). I'm sad. I'm utterly disappointed in myself that i wasn't telling her every single thing there could be said. Oh i was damn wrong on that. In recent times, she keeps mentioning names of people who're far better looking than me in schoo...
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