worse, worst. yesterday oral. it was okay like normal only that i became a little nervous. the EL oral was better than the MT oral. MT oral is so like shit. i think EL is better. how i wish if this world has no MT language hence, we do not need to learn MT. but we could not change it. i hope to get good grades for this particular examination. i try to get at least 16 - 17. but this is only the first part of the whole exam. there is still the listening comprehension, paper 1 & 2. so, no need to worry so much for it. at least this is the SA1 only. there is still prelim and PSLE. wonder if i can skip primary school and jump to secondary. but we have to go through all this if not we would not learn anything. it was a relief when everything was over. i really threw off a huge burden on my shoulders. i heaved a very big sigh while walking out of the hall. my heart was beating like 100 beats per minute. it was an experience to remember.
No hugs today. I sent her home with no goodbye hugs. It was meant to be a norm. I don't know what her reason was but it didn't really matter. Although through that, i am starting to suspect something amiss. The topic of the incident (previous post) was brought up again in BK while we were having late dinner. Things she said that i realised: 1) it was my fault to have kept things from her 2) it was my fault that things are worse off now than before 3) it's as though she wants me out I don't know what to infer. I mean as best as i could, i would do everything right and treat her right. But of course, i'm only human that makes mistakes like texting a girl behind her back and still keeps her secrets (what a douche!). I'm sad. I'm utterly disappointed in myself that i wasn't telling her every single thing there could be said. Oh i was damn wrong on that. In recent times, she keeps mentioning names of people who're far better looking than me in schoo...
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