well, at first i felt awkward coz there's no one that i know except for some. but after a while i got more comfortable with the school. but what i cannot do is to queue 1 hour to buy the books and another hour to buy unis.... WTF!!! so many bloody people. but in the end got my stuff. still happy with my school coz its juz so near and the school field is so perfect coz it's under SSC and is carpet grass. maybe joining NPCC coz it's the most fun CCA in the school. anyway, there is only four ML boys in my class including me. how sad...i feel very lonely now coz all are new pupils to me. and the teachers and new too. i now know that secondary school is very strict. scary seh!!!
No hugs today. I sent her home with no goodbye hugs. It was meant to be a norm. I don't know what her reason was but it didn't really matter. Although through that, i am starting to suspect something amiss. The topic of the incident (previous post) was brought up again in BK while we were having late dinner. Things she said that i realised: 1) it was my fault to have kept things from her 2) it was my fault that things are worse off now than before 3) it's as though she wants me out I don't know what to infer. I mean as best as i could, i would do everything right and treat her right. But of course, i'm only human that makes mistakes like texting a girl behind her back and still keeps her secrets (what a douche!). I'm sad. I'm utterly disappointed in myself that i wasn't telling her every single thing there could be said. Oh i was damn wrong on that. In recent times, she keeps mentioning names of people who're far better looking than me in schoo...
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