let's pretend i even have friends to call them my friends, to begin with.
it's been rather boring since the start of the holidays.
extended curriculum for the secondary threes were fair. it wasn't too bad actually. and so today is the last day of extended curriculum for Bio students. i heard some other classes still have lessons. HAH! i pity them.
then again, it's the holidays. so i guess the lessons were much of a waste because all of us are on holiday mood and were not paying attention at all.
then there's co-curricular activity. it has pretty much filled most of my holiday schedule already. it doesn't matter to me. at least it ain't too hectic as the previous holiday. but it's depressing to be left alone, managing the band on my own. it's kind of, messy. i mean, there were three of us, each doing own and different parts. but now, there's one, doing all three alone. ain't that messy? yeah, i miss them already. oh, please let this week pass quickly.
however, there's a few interesting upcoming events that i might look forward to though. say, class chalet, band camp, Sunway Lagoon, new year countdown. heh. how i wish my life was always this easy-going. damn, next year is the stressful year for students who attend secondary school and promoted to secondary four express.
this year's passing way to fast. i don't even have time to sit down, relax and think! oh well. i guess i have to catch up to the world then.
you know what? there's always one moment in your life where you had done something really dumb that when you look back at it, you realise it was a good thing. i mean, you treated someone badly/coldly, or maybe being frank and direct, it could actually teach that person a lesson. i realised that life's too short to regret. although sometimes you hate yourself for doing something you can't reverse. but you will feel good about it the next day, or when you looked from the positive side of things. no no. i'm not talking about myself. i'm talking to myself, but i'm telling myself that someone has taught me a valuable lesson about falling in love.
everyone's been telling me it's okay, i should move on and stuff. i chose to believe otherwise. maybe i'm wrong. but maybe i don't care anymore now. i want to be me again. i miss being me. i wasn't me when i met you. no, you didn't change me. i changed me. i want to change me again. i shall try not to concern you in my life anymore. it's okay if you have to go away. like everyone else will say, there are many fishes, crabs and prawns in the sea/ocean. but, if you choose to seek the passage back to me, there's always that one button on your phone to press. i'll always be willing.
oh i forgot to remind myself that i was ecstatic when i got my new Slurplife bag and my The Flash t-shirt! that one day shopping with my mom nearly cost me a fortune! lucky my mom volunteered to sponsor my bag! heh. i love my ever changing life! it's sooooo awesoommeeeeee.
i just realised i like to write essay long ass posts and many people don't like to read it. but it's fun to read! especially my blog. k, i shall try to keep it short next time. and tag me. seems lifeless.
shit happens and life has to go on. 'till we meet again. as if anybody cares.
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