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love, lies, trust, hate and twenty-eleven.

it has been extremely painful for this past week and the week before. rehearsals and school is just going to get tougher and it's not waiting on anyone. sacrificial sleep time, revision time and study time have to be given away. it's 2011 and year of the SYF, clashed with my O levels. it may seems far away but the fact of the matter is that i don't even have time anymore. it's time flying everyday and in 5 days it's SYF. after that, it'll just zoom ahead and out-pace me and soon enough it's my exams. it won't be soon before long i know - i just hope it'll be soon enough for me to buck up and open my eyes.

i'm not going to let any of these crap life problems get in my way and hinder my life. i just hate it when it's only tiny matter and just someone has to make a pandemic about it. no, i'm not going to be your friend, i'm not going to be your boy, i'm not going to be your bestfriend, i'm not going to be your bro, i'm not going to be your leader, i'm not going to be your schoolmate, i'm not going to be your classmate. i'm just going to be another human being with intent to learn and get my O level certificate. so get away from me and stay far.

i've never been so confused. i need to get my mind set straight and thinking again. fickle, is the word.

it will be soon before my life can become a vicious cycle.

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