finally. i'm a free man.
OP'us 2011 was definitely a blast. we blew the audiences away. i couldn't put into words how i felt throughout the entire process of preparing for this concert as well as the feeling when it was all over. two months ago, i had my SYF competition and it wasn't very impressive in terms of the result. and here i am, two months later, pulling off an awesome concert together with my fellow musicians and alumnus. we played nothing but music and i can really feel it through my body. tremors of awe just shook my body when the last three notes of Third Symphony 'The Tragic' Movement IV (Finale) was played. and there goes. four years in a Wind Orchestra is over. i never thought i could pull through. i even thought of quitting it in sec two. but i am standing stronger than ever and proud to say that i was a band member. i was from Orchid Park Wind Orchestra.
to be honest, concert day never felt like a concert day yesterday. but to be more honest, i started panicking a week before concert day because i know i couldn't play all the notes to tempo. i even thought of coming back to sectional everyday. in the end, i had no choice but to squeeze everything one day before the concert day itself. i was panic-stricken but it was great. i felt calm on the concert day. and it didn't feel like a concert. it felt like another rehearsal. and it was the and utmost superb rehearsal ever. i can tell anyone, that they have missed out so much of great music within the two hours. not to brag, but that's fact.
so i guess now all that's left to do for me and the sec fours is to relax and think about our studies. we would all eventually get use to not waking up early on Saturdays but for beginners, it is going to take awhile. i would feel odd going back home early on Wednesday and Friday and not sleeping early on Friday night to wake up on Saturday morning. but this is all memories. i would definitely visit the band some day. maybe when i am really free. but not right after i stepped down. that would just be awkward. to be honest, i can't wait to step down and pass over all the responsibility to the juniors. i've done my part for the year and it's their turn. i know everyone is feeling sad and reluctant to move on and so do i. but hey, you're not going to live forever. life has to go on. now the band without a conductor is just sad. the new batch going to take over the band has to do alot of work. and i really hope that they can do it proper. pray for the best.
and i napped like ten times today. it's called post-concert syndrome. damn i should really get up now.
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