what.

twenty twelve has been harsh since its beginning but things are much better now considering the life i'm living. i must say it didn't went the way i envisioned it. i was expecting of a much gloom and blunt end to the year but then i met a girl. i met a girl during an outing celebrating our religious victory of fasting for a month called Hari Raya Puasa. it was quite magical i must say because it was only through that outing i noticed her. in fact, it was the first time i laid my eyes on her and i was quite mesmerized. months ago i was still heart broken over some dyed-hair, cute smiling and short Chinese girl just because i hadn't been talking to her. well, that was quite a dumb thing actually think about it. that was the past. what matters most now is the present and future. not hoping too much but it is true that any of us reading this post is not getting any younger by the second and i guess it is imperative for us to think of our own future. i would very much like to find my last (girlfriend) to settle down with and start a life. i feel that this girl, whom i adore very much and whom i believe adore me too, is the girl that i will be with for the rest of my life. i would do my very best to be the best boyfriend and friend and best friend. it would have to be the same on her part for this to work out pretty well. for now, it's been two months that we've been dating and i must say, it's quite a journey. for one, we have never fought, which is quite surprising taking into account the type of pushy and unreasonable and petty guy i am. and our dates have been meaningful (though some were really uncalled for). i really like being with this girl. i enjoy myself and i can be myself with her. it's the comfort that i cannot find with anyone else, maybe not even my best of friends. it's also the chemistry that we have with each other. i have to admit it's not a full chemistry but we are usually on the same page when we talk. the way we think has similarities too. we like almost the same things. of course they say opposite attracts and i guess it is true because it's her weirdness and bubbly character that is rather adorable. two months of knowing her and suddenly everyone that i know, knows her too. well, i didn't expect much but many of our schoolmates knows that we're dating and it's not entirely surprising judging by the fact that they are Singaporeans. of course i had to tell my two besties because we tell each other almost everything (even though we've not met for a long time and we're slowly drifting apart). then i just had to tell my mother because i was dead serious about this girl but i didn't tell her her name (she won't remember anyway) but i just had to let her know i was dating a girl so she won't get worried when i came home late and she knows where to look when i'm out. she even knows i usually go to Tampines, where the girl lives. hilarious. i guess that's pretty much my life at this point of time. i'm blessed with a loving girlfriend and a cheery family. i am quite worried about my father's heart operation on Friday though. i just hope all is well as he'd gone through the operation before. now, i have to focus on my J2 this coming twenty thirteen with my girlfriend by my side. we'll make it through. we'll make it work.