Discontent

It is actually quite saddening to know that you're not good enough in something. It's very bothersome. It just gets into your mind and eat you up. Well at least for me, it works that way. But i guess i have to accept reality that in other's eyes, i'm just of no standard in this sport they play. Watching this match right now makes me reflect how i'm just no good. I'm just sad that my place in the first team is freed up. It seems promising at first but since the last friendly match, i know my position can be replaced. All i ask is to be in the first team and play with my year two friends. Not some bunch of year one freshies.