No hugs today. I sent her home with no goodbye hugs. It was meant to be a norm. I don't know what her reason was but it didn't really matter. Although through that, i am starting to suspect something amiss. The topic of the incident (previous post) was brought up again in BK while we were having late dinner.
Things she said that i realised:
1) it was my fault to have kept things from her
2) it was my fault that things are worse off now than before
3) it's as though she wants me out
I don't know what to infer. I mean as best as i could, i would do everything right and treat her right. But of course, i'm only human that makes mistakes like texting a girl behind her back and still keeps her secrets (what a douche!). I'm sad. I'm utterly disappointed in myself that i wasn't telling her every single thing there could be said. Oh i was damn wrong on that.
In recent times, she keeps mentioning names of people who're far better looking than me in school. I know she was merely joking but i can't help but feel all insecure and broken hearted and jealous. Okay now i'm starting to think that i'm not telling her things. Even if i told her, she would just relate back to the incident. I dislike that. Bottom line is, i'm hurt at every mention of another guy's name.
Happy Chinese New Year guys.
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