It's not one the days when you feel down anymore. It's that day when you found out how lousy you actually are academically. Today the Physics department called out 14 lowest students in the cohort and had a talk with the HOD. Well i already knew it wasn't good news when i saw my name flashed on the screen. I was never called out for a good thing before. They made me realise that A level is not child's play. That was enough to spoil my mood for the entire week.
No hugs today. I sent her home with no goodbye hugs. It was meant to be a norm. I don't know what her reason was but it didn't really matter. Although through that, i am starting to suspect something amiss. The topic of the incident (previous post) was brought up again in BK while we were having late dinner. Things she said that i realised: 1) it was my fault to have kept things from her 2) it was my fault that things are worse off now than before 3) it's as though she wants me out I don't know what to infer. I mean as best as i could, i would do everything right and treat her right. But of course, i'm only human that makes mistakes like texting a girl behind her back and still keeps her secrets (what a douche!). I'm sad. I'm utterly disappointed in myself that i wasn't telling her every single thing there could be said. Oh i was damn wrong on that. In recent times, she keeps mentioning names of people who're far better looking than me in schoo...
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