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Syawal.

Hello cold world.

It's been a very hectic and very interesting week. And i am so glad it ended with a blast. I don't know why but it wasn't usually like this. So far, this is the most intense and draggy week due to the lessons that was just draggy. Consultations after consultations were also beginning to feel like a chore. But i had many opportunities to relief myself by the short street sessions. It was just heaven. I really miss soccer. And i shall miss it until after As, if God is willing.

And since the start of Syawal, many things haven't been fine. Maybe it's just Allah's way of showing things but i accept and adapt. It was such a blissful thing to experience Syawal again (and Ramadhan) for it means that i get to meet my friends and seek their forgiveness, particularly a very special person. Apart from my family, she is the one who has been beside me throughout ever since the beginning of 2013. I am so grateful to her for being my pillar of strength and motivation in my academic. Though we have many ups and downs recently, i want to say that i am sorry for everything. I know many a time it is my fault. I admit. I guess Thursday was the peak of everything in our relationship. I understand the stress of studying can get you sometimes and the thought of giving every single thing up is just always playing in your mind. But that's because you have not unleashed your full potential. Under any circumstances, i am here to guide you and everyone else is, including your tutors. I do have the thought of just letting everything go sometimes, everyone has their days but what kept me going is the plans of how my future would turn out with you in it and the memories that we shared. And i just cannot ever imagine living a day without you. I know this is going to be arduous and very taxing but i assure you, it will be all worth it. I am willing to do everything that you can ask for just to keep you going. No one is going to say As is a very relaxing journey but no matter how intense it will get, i'll always be there for you. Your life is my life now. I also want to thank her for being patient on Friday for waiting for me while i go for my driving lesson. I know i'm such a burden but i know you are the one because you are willing to make me happy. Plus, you get to make a new friend. And for what's left, we shall give our 110% in it. ;)

Oh yes, i lost my specs yesterday. So many challenges in this month. But i shall fight on to the end of November.

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