Well, yesterday was awesome. It was legendary. And honestly, very memorable. Though it's still fresh in my mind, but i have no doubt that it will stay in my mind for the next century and more.
What happened was a unique experience which i have never been through in my entire life. Yesterday marks the first. I was invited (or self-invite rather :P) to her place for a gathering to celebrate her parents' anniversary. Being at her place was not a problem because it wasn't my first, nor meeting her big family because i had dinner with them before. But it's quite a tough thing to combine both at once; meet the family at her place. Quite a scary thing i must say. As normal people, we would feel nervous meeting people for the first time. And so i did. I was so nervous and scared of how to carry myself in front of my future family members. I was scared of what to do, what to say, how to say, how to sit, where to sit, where to stand, how to eat. Everything. I was scared. I stopped at the third storey and calmed myself. I told myself that, i've come this far (at that point in time was the third storey, but in terms of my relationship, we've been through a lot), and that giving up was never a choice, so probably the only right thing and the only moral thing to do is grow a pair of ball sack and meet her family. I don't even know why i was so nervous. But i told myself it's going to go smooth and needs a little adjusting. And so we continued up the fourth storey. I was greeted with all her family members' glistening smiles and welcoming hellos. I felt so relaxed and so happy. I felt at home. I never felt like this before. It was a brand new feeling. Like you've just been born again. I feel accepted and belonged. Of course meeting people for the first time would naturally be awkward. So there were tiny conversations here and there with her aunts and uncles whom tried to, i suppose, make me feel really at home. But i didn't want to strip half naked and lie down like my house. Hahaha. I just sat in a quiet corner and waited for her to direct me what to do. I enjoyed the atmosphere that her family has and it is exactly the same as my family, i'd say. So the subtle difference didn't occur to me and it made me accept them as my own immediately. I thought to myself, i am going to marry her, and they are going to be my family, so no matter what, they are still related to me. I know they are the ones whom i can depend on. At that point of time, i just sat and relaxed. I observed and ate my food and it really feels like i've known them since the beginning of time. They are all so funny and they really are a bunch of happy folks which also makes me extremely happy.
Ironically, this stranger called Yazid was the last to leave the house. And to make it worse, her sleepy father had to send me home. I really felt bad because he was sleepy and driving me home was not a good idea but he insisted so i kept quiet, like a good boy. It only goes to show that not only the family was nice and welcoming, even her parents had feels. Her mother and father was always welcoming and i never felt alienated. I felt really belonged. I felt like i was already her family.
I must say, doing things for the first time is indeed scary but most of the time worth the try. So, do it.
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