Sometimes in life, many things don't always go your way and certainly relationships is one of them. There are many times where you take for granted the things you have easy to you and forget that it all comes with a price. All the effort you put in and time you spent to achieve what you have or what you want may be gone in seconds if you do not take proper care of that prized possession. Certainly, people fail in many ways, to realise that keeping and maintaing the peace amd harmony in a relationship is a more difficult task than merely creating one. It's effort and maybe money to keep it upright and headed in the right direction. Every single thing you do is no longer about you anymore. It's all about your future and your other half. You got to stop and think that maybe life is all about finding out more of yourself through your other half. I don't know about the rest but for me, mistakes can only be made none. There's no room for mistakes but you can't expect a perfect relationship either. Maybe once or twice is fine and no more than that. We're only human. I guess stepping all over the head of your other half is not going to help any of you in the relationship. I realise my mistake was that i hadn't used much of my effort to maintain my relationship and i've certainly ran into some trouble. Apparently, it's huge this time. And i can't seem to fix it. I know crying won't help but it sure as hell hurts like a bitch. I'm not going to say much but i just want to remind ourselves that what we worked for can vanish if not given due attention. And mistakes are not acceptable.
No hugs today. I sent her home with no goodbye hugs. It was meant to be a norm. I don't know what her reason was but it didn't really matter. Although through that, i am starting to suspect something amiss. The topic of the incident (previous post) was brought up again in BK while we were having late dinner. Things she said that i realised: 1) it was my fault to have kept things from her 2) it was my fault that things are worse off now than before 3) it's as though she wants me out I don't know what to infer. I mean as best as i could, i would do everything right and treat her right. But of course, i'm only human that makes mistakes like texting a girl behind her back and still keeps her secrets (what a douche!). I'm sad. I'm utterly disappointed in myself that i wasn't telling her every single thing there could be said. Oh i was damn wrong on that. In recent times, she keeps mentioning names of people who're far better looking than me in schoo...
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