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she will never be replaced

in short, JC life is taking a toll on me. and it's just been lack of sleep everyday with school dragging for about twelve hours most of the days. it's been happening too fast and too abrupt that everyone can barely handle it.
besides, my feelings for my one and only girl ain't making it any better. for late, i feel like i've been distancing myself away from her and kinda ignoring her for no apparent reason. i must be crazy. but what saddens me most is that she doesn't make an effort to try. at least that's what i think. i like emily. i really really do. it doesn't matter at all if we can't be together. i just want to talk to her, be her friend or just even stand by her side for as long as i can. it makes me happy. it just makes my day and my life more complete. the emptiness in my heart is sealed whenever she's around. i always feel happy when i talk to her or see her smile. she's just so beautiful. her personality is outstanding. perfect for me. is this what you call love?

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