all in the life, me

i wish i, could do better by you, cause that's what you deserve. you sacrifice, so much of your whole life, in order for this to work. while i'm off chasing my dreams, sailing around the world. please know that i'm yours to keep, my beautiful girl.

there's always that one point in your life where you just can't seem to think straight. every single thing seems to bother you and everything seems wrong. you tend to go literally crazy thinking about things that don't even concern you. and though life isn't always the way you planned it, the alternative way is usually the better ones. i mean, you may want to love that person, but when you let go, sometimes things will just get better. i'm tired of waiting. just let me know when you're ready. this week has been rather tiring. rehearsals after rehearsals, homework after homework. and day after day, i get weaker and weaker. in class, i always think of the weekends. and during weekends, i wish for it to be longer. oh gosh. how time flies. yet i'm not having fun. soon, it'll be the last week of the term and will start on the new term and then exams and then sec four. got this feeling of anxiety as well as fear to face the sec four life .

i love today. i love yesterday. i love monday. i love teachers' day rehearsals. i love you. i love my bass. i got nothing to do and i am bored. therefore, i wrote a blog post. school has been okay for the past two/three days. and it's been two weeks, exactly half a month(15th day) of fasting. i still am alive, and feeling great. sometimes, you feel like giving up in life. but there's always a moment when you found motivation and kept you going. i don't how, when or what is your motivation but i think that i need some right now. it's as though i'm in a maze without any exit. i have no idea. i shall be a happy person from today onwards. i was so happy today and i don't even know why. and i like it when i see others smile with me or back at me. yeah, so life's good from a different perspective. i don't know about you, but i think you got to start smiling. because when you smile, the whole world stops and stares for a while. and my eyes are sooooo gonna ...

the plan was simple. go to baybeats with Sijia, watch David Choi perform, and go home. but it turned out even more awesome. we met Trishia and Fayyad along the way. then i decided to stay outside longer. so i decided to walk around in town. walked to Far East first, then went to 313. after which we walked all the way down to the corner of Orchard Road to TAB. waited like some idiot for about fifteen minutes for no apparent reason. and finally went in. i thought i'd leave halfway or head straight home after the performance. instead, i chased him around TAB like the others did just to get my CD autographed and snapped a photo with him. and he was like staring at my shirt for seconds, trying to make out what it said. then when he read it, he gave a smile and thumbs up. i melted. OMG. conclusion; yesterday was the best Saturday ever spent possibly in my entire life. well, let's pretty much say i have very little homework left. and i'm going to watch LIKE A BAND and ACTDEUX pe...

for the past few days, i've been really drained. the lack of sleep and sometimes insomnia kills me! but i finally got my full-length sleep yesterday. i slept at 8.30pm. Omg. But the feeling's indescribable. And yes, i haven't slept since i woke up at 5am. Band's starting soon anyway. This week have been rather short. But there's way more than many assignments to complete. AND THIS WEEKEND IS SO HAPPENING. I guess i won't be doing much homework then. ;D Baybeats anyone? listen to your heart. follow your senses. do what's right. for two wrongs, don't make a right. i really(x5) like you. and i want you, to be happy.

fuck what i said, it don't mean shit now. fuck all the presents, might as well throw 'em out. fuck all those kisses, it didn't mean Jack. fuck you, you all. i don't want you back.

A NEUTRON WALKS INTO A BAR AND ORDERED A BEER. WHEN ASKED FOR THE BILL, THE BARTENDER SAID, "FOR YOU, NO CHARGE!" - BIG BANG THEORY I WANNA GO WATCH DAVID CHOI SO BADLY! ANYONE KIND ENOUGH TO ACCOMPANY ME? PRETTY PLEASE. :D maybe, just maybe, you're the reason i became so strong. but for sure you're the reason i can't sleep. aren't you tired? you've been running through my mind all day! no, no. this is not called emotional. but if it is, then it is all your fault for not making me happy. what would you wish for, if you had one chance? i'd wish for you and i to become us .

there's always that one person that will always have your heart.

i'm not gonna lie to you. when you're fasting, you think of food and the smell and taste you imagine becomes so real that it makes you drool. i thought of fried maggie just now. but i didn't buy or make any. because i know i wouldn't want to eat anything else after drinking lots of tea. seriously, it's fun to fast. you know, when your friends are gone and left you all alone to go with other friends, you always have your family by you. sometimes, i question my own existence. i feel very sad for me, and ever more sad for the people whom are self-centered. they seem to not know what they are doing, where they are heading in life and who they are the ones they can trust. although it is forgivable that they sometimes forget, but all the time? that's simply ridiculous. i felt angry, sad and happy all at the same time today. i felt confused. but i found my brother and he made me feel all secure and happy because he was somehow there for me. i was grateful to him. he ma...

i'm not gonna lie to you, but seriously, fasting ain't all that bad. i'd like to see it as FUN ! indeed, it is! so, second day of the fasting month just passed. and i feel kinda great. although hunger and thirst are always there killing me. all the devil 's fault. when there's a will, there's a way. but i feel pure . lucky me, this week hadn't been as hectic. *news flash* ASSIDUOUS is IN for the Teachers' Day performance! :D excited ttm. love is only an illusion.

currently, the weather is simply killing me! and i start to wonder how i am going to survive tomorrow when fasting kicks in. i shall: not lie. not drink. not eat. not play soccer. not be rude. not be vulgar. be patient. persevere. fast for a full month. super excited! HAPPY FASTING MONTH EVERYBODY. :P if A likes B, but B likes C, then how is it going to end?

well, i guess today is National Day. so, Happy National Day everybody! honestly, i think the parade commander for the parade, sucks ttm. and overall, the parade is just boring. i mean, i know it's the same thing but at the very least add a new item or two. well, it totally don't feel like a National Day for me at all. basically completed almost all assignments today. pretty much left with one or none. oh. and i bought this cheapo earphones that i have no freaking idea why i bought it in the first place. the sound quality sucks, or rather, it had no sound quality at all! *note to self: never buy cheapo earphones ever again! reality check, fasting starts on 11/8. that's incredibly fast. i shall go on a food hunt tomorrow and eat all i crave before fasting!

yes. finally, i played soccer today. it's not as if i hadn't played in years. but it makes a huge difference. like normal humans do, you get tired after vigorous exercise. so, i took a nap like a freaking pig. suddenly, i decided to wake up and do a little of homework. and thankfully finished Math. so, after much discussion mother and i decided to go for a walk&shop. and she wanted to go Causeway Point for whatever reason. being a good son, i followed and accompanied her. the very first thing she did was...EAT! zomg. i mean, i can't blame her though. she didn't eat the whole day. and i wonder why! wtf. so, she ate, and i ate, coz she told me to, and i was full to the brim. then, she wanted to walk around and shop. and to Metro we went. amazingly, she didn't buy a thing. i bought my stuff. and she bought something for her beloved husband. cute! then bought food for him and went home. what an eventful Sunday. thank God for not raining today! :D reality check, appr...

i woke up in the morning feeling that it was just going to be an ordinary Saturday. but i was wrong. it was indeed fun. went to meet the two majors at KC's McD to initially do the formation and committee thingy. in the end, we ended up eating and not doing anything much productive. then we got bored and cold and went to NP. walked around the mall and found ourselves in Bishan. went to Central to buy loads of Sticky. after that, we went to Vivo to eat a while and rested at the rooftop. we chitted and chatted until we were v bored. after being bored of being bored, we finally went down to look at the happening sales. Topman, Topshop, Forever 21, Pull and Bear, Adidas, Zara, most of the shops are having sale! ZOMG. sooooo tempting! finally, went down to eat dinner and went home. all in all, we had a band major's outing. what a wonderful day, although not productive. i think it's a great way to bond, although it may feel a little awkward. and now, i have another three/two days ...

it's officially holiday now! my life seems to be revolving around something called band. there's just too much to do in so little time. i mean, who would've known that band could ever be this busy. everyday, something new happens. and today, something new happened to me. but i'm not gonna tell you who, what, where, how, why or when. anyway, today was a pretty normal day. not much happened. except that i woke up at 5.30am to reach school at 6.30am to rehearse until 7.15am. the parade lasted until 8.15am and after finally finish packing everything, it was 9.00am. went back to class and had recess until 9.30am. WTF. celebrations followed and ended at 11.30am. came back to band at around 4pm until 5.30pm. alumni rehearsal ended at 8.30pm. fucking shagged ttm please. nonetheless, there will be a four-day break for all of us. and i have no idea what i'm about to do with myself within these four days, apart from doing homework. i think life is getting tougher by the second...

you know, being a man isn't always good. you have to chase the girl, attract her, ask her and treat her good. you basically have to do everything. but the girl on the other hand, just say 'yes' or 'no', boss the guys around and if they're aren't happy, the guy will have the saddest part of his lifetime. after that, we will all learn to move on. sometimes, the girl will realize her mistake and try to get together again. but she often realized it too late. then they go their separate ways and never meet again. being a leader isn't that great either. you have to lead well, set example for others to follow and technically know almost everything. above all that, you have a big, huge, ginormous, humongous responsibility. everyone will come looking for you for answers. sometimes, you will get punished and blamed for the wrong thing or even worse, the thing that you didn't do! i know life is tough. it was never made easy. God gave us challenges to overcome f...

time heals the wound we couldn't close. blood, sweat and tears dried up, we're okay. we kept marchin' on. and when i see your face, there's not a thing that i would change. girl, you're amazing just the way you are. and when you smile, the whole world stops and stares for a while. coz' girl you're amazing just the way you are. just gonna stand there and watch me burn. but that's all right, because i like the way it hurts. just gonna stand there and hear me cry. that's all right, because i love the way you lie. you've got body like a coke bottle. then i step into the dance portal. i see you in Seattle. drinking ice and eating popsicle. but i'm more than just an option. refuse to be forgotten. i better find your love. and i better find your heart. i'm more than just a number. i bet you'll find another. no, i'm not into the 'i like you' business. diary of.

i'm extremely happy today and i don't know why. my happiness is built on others misery. i wonder who is feeling sad. since my bro had the iPhone 4, my dad has got his iPhone 3G. and guess what? it doesn't work! ZOMG. it has got issues. pity my dad. i bet he doesn't know shit about using iPhone. anyways, this week had been awesome possum. hadn't been as busy as i thought it would be. and soon it was over! had been jamming with mates for audition that's happening on 3rd Aug. really, really hope that we would get through as it is our first time! * check out the practice video on our youtube channel things will not always go as how we plan it would be. but i suppose it would teach us a very important lesson that we could learn and apply it to our very lives. you can still go around chasing girls you like, but at the end of the day all you get is a broken heart. but if you take good care of her, perhaps she wouldn't be too harsh on you. all that i need now is a s...