all in the life, me

it seems as though everyone is getting injured physically. i call it the sprain ankle week. and everyone that's not injured physically gets hurt emotionally. what is this. i can't be sad anymore. or at least not for the rest of my life. that's my #marchwish February's been a dick. and for dick, it's quite small. there's more bad than good things that's happened in this month. i guess it's all over now that March is here to bring up all the good out of the bad. i wish each and every single soul i know will be cheered up by this new month. Cheers.

the only good of being happy is that you know no one else can make you sad. i just had a soccer match in the morning. obtained two freakishly tiny but extremely painful blisters on both foot. achievement unlocked. now i'm suffering a terrible headache due to insufficient sleep. what a life to live.

i wonder if you ever felt this way. being in this position of having two choose between two things close to you. which would you choose. every decision you make is important, but everything happens for a reason as well. not all the things that happened are coincidental. not everything was because of fate. it is sometimes mere impulse of our brains, to make that very decision which could be life-changing. and i suppose everyone has done that. well, to be said is much easier than done. i'm sure everyone's mouth and tongues can lash all the words that could be oh-so glittering and awesome or what not but it all voice down to one thing; your actions. if your mouth can say a thing but your actions the total opposite, i'd rather you seal your mouth and change your actions before opening that black hole of yours again. i know everyone makes mistakes but some are truly unforgiving. you make your decisions. you choose your future. you do what you think is right. you do things for th...

AND I'M SPIRALING DOWN THE HIERARCHY OF INFAMOUS i don't know how to feel anymore. everyone seems to be out and about. everybody's changing. the whole world is changing.

SUICIDAL THOUGHTS

go ahead and tell what you want others to know, because deep down inside you know it's not true. woohoo. i've been sick for the week but managed to rest at home for only a day when my MC clearly states it's two days. unfortunate ah, because i decided to be in the class photo of the year for4S3 since it's the last class photo together. uh huh. i'm that cool. well, not really. recently, i guess stress overwhelmed me. maybe there's too much to do with so little time given. but the fact that i'm taking Os this year, i know it's going to be tough. maybe my time management isn't helping me at all. every single day there's always work to do. even the weekends which were there for rest have been preoccupied with loads of work for us to complete. inconvenient much. nevertheless, onward and persevere. Why is it so hard to let go of you, even though all you do is ignore me and talk to everyone else. There's a dying flame in me that wants you but couldn...

I WOULDN'T CALL YOU HUMAN AT ALL, IF YOUR FRIENDS AREN'T FIRST ON YOUR LIST.

secrets; knowing a lot may help you ease obstacles in life knowing too much just kills you inside it happens when you see the secret being played out right before your own eyes then again, it's up to your conscience if you'd like to believe it

i hate these kind of people living on the face of the earth. these kind of hypocrites. i know i shouldn't be angry at him. he used to be this nice person that i knew. but now he has changed. changed along with his new friends. i know he still acts normal with me, but within i know i can partially see hatred, or rather just dislikeness in him about me. he was usually quiet back then. now, he comments on everything he can. not that i'm too sensitive or something, but each and every human beings also have feelings right. ya, call me mat rep, or trendy wanker or whatever type of shit names you have in your head but you can never change me. go ahead and influence your other junior friends to dislike me and gossip about me. they seem much cooler than me, more common things you have with them and maybe better friends that you make with them. it's been four years or so, but it's all these little incidents that adds up to one big chunk. for long, i've been noticing. it's...

WEDNESDAY; half-day of school today. performance was rather dull. and the whole picture just doesn't make sense because the mood was definitely not there. so has been the week. it was a very short week. and lacking excitement for me. ya, got back quite a few tests with very disappointing results. well, i definitely need to buck up but there's like a heavy bone in my arm that can't move. lazy bone. oh dyme. i think life's much easier when you're happy, ey? no one would ask if you're okay and digging the truth out. no one would ask if they are the problems or cause. no one would ask if you need help or assistance in life. only thing they would ask is if you're okay because you're being too happy, and the only reason they're asking is because they are jealous of your happiness and wished you were them. how i regard life so easily. maybe you don't matter to me anymore.