all in the life, me

last week of school holidays. and i'm scared and stressed. too afraid that i can't finish my homework and all other stuff on time. Monday - Wednesday Kuala Lumpur Trip 20122010 k, day one in Malaysia was great. been walking aroung in my TOMS and i think it has expanded a little. so sad! i don't want it to spoil so easily. OH WELL! left home at about 6.30am and reached KL at about 11am. before that, ate breakfast along the way. went to eat at my aunt's Nasi Lemak stall immediately after we reached. after lunch, went to shop for the whole day. nothing much as compared to Singapore's things! the sale just started today so not much difference on the pricing yet, but most of the sales are half-priced! oh so tempting. in the end, i only bought one Cotton On shorts which costs RM49. beauty! 21122010 k, second day in Malaysia, Kuala Lumpur. well, not technically in Kuala Lumpur though. stayed at my cousin's house for the night at Ampang. she keeps a golden python as a p

wow. so much for homework day. it turns out to be a catastrophe. i didn't even touch my homework! argh. woke up quite early, as compared to other days. but mother had plans already and no choice but to follow her. went out to visit my cousin who just gave birth to a baby girl. extremely adorable. then went home for awhile. went out again to NEX at Serangoon to walk about and see what's there. honestly, it was a total waste of time. ate late lunch at Wendy's and went home. and now i have totally no mood to do anything since tomorrow i'll be heading out of Singapore already. i should totally bring my homework along and try to squeeze as much as i can into the limited time i'm already having. DAMN. k, Sunday's proved unproductive. maybe my brain works during weekdays. screwed. see you in three days time starting from tomorrow, humans. shit TOTALLY happens but life has to go on.

k, yesterday was the section outing as planned. all were present except for QiFang, whom had to go visit at hospital. so, there's seven of us. trained all the way down to Marina Bay, thinking of going to Marina Barrage. before we went out, it rained but stopped. then by the time we reached Marina Bay, it started to rain again. maybe it's just fated that we weren't supposed to go picnic. oh well. then changed to wet-weather plan. trained back to City Hall, ate at Marina Square and walked around abit. half of them left, leaving four of us behind at Marina Square. walked, shopped a ring, took photos and went home. it was awesome. although not much were done but at least we got together after a very long time and got to catch up alot! overall, fun. now, it's 18 December 2010, Saturday. my homework's not touched and i'm wondering when i'm going to do it. ~edit i'm back from shopping with mother. bought a few stuff and now i'm broke again. waiting for peop

k, time for MEGA post. let's start with the past. i've said this week to be study week. ya, so much for that. been going out almost everyday and my homework's still not done up to 85% level. well, at least i'm not going out of the country already. or so i thought. and to add to that misery, my dad said no to having care of pet rabbits. i was heart-broken. i was like, wtf x1000. why not?!?!? he was like, oh you have Os next year and better concentrate on studies blahblahblah. as if that wasn't enough, he added, and rabbits are difficult to maintain, later sick who wanna bring to the vet, who wanna clean the cage, who wanna feed, who wanna entertain it and stuff. i was like -.- totally giving him the fuckface all the way. that happened when we were heading home from USS though. it was fun and awesome and all those good/great describing words you could use to describe it. but seriously though, it's like the most amazing thing being there. the rides were more than a

woah. 3 more weeks to the end of holidays, and start of a brand new year. the most stressful year of any secondary school student! i'm afraid. so are most of the other students. there's this uncertainty in me. i just hope i can work hard enough to get through safely, once and without having to repeat. first of all, my homework is not even done! and holidays are ending already. next week has got to be study week! argh. tomorrow shall be the last day i'm going out already, since my house will be quite empty as my granparents are going overseas. so i can have peace at home! teehee. second of all, CCA has been all over me. and now that we're having break, i should better concentrate on the books. but i'm forever worried about orientation. afraid it'll not be done in time, it'll not be perfect, and most afraid of the whole world looking down on us, looking down on me! gah. all these wishful thinking. eh wait. 14 more days to Christmas. i want something! heh. hear

i'm not hoping for a second chance i'm screaming at the top of my voice give me reason, but don't give me choice 'cos i'll just make the same mistake again.

wow. i've never been so angry since a long time. i'm so angry till i shiver. i can't stand this. but i can't help myself. i'm so fucking pissed. just pissed. at every single mistake. every single thing that they can't do it up to my expectations. it's not that difficult though. all you got to do is have self-discipline. you just got to control yourself. does it mean that i'm too kind if i didn't punish you guys and could just step all over my head? or am i being too fierce and unreasonable if i punish all the time without reason? i have no other methods of disciplining you guys. all i could ever do now is get you guys to buck up in order for all the hardwork put in this project to be a success. i want all of this to work. i want all of us to be a success. i'm sick and tired of hearing all the complaints from other people looking down on us as if we're trash. well, i'm sorry for those who i've treated badly for today. i guess the devil