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11122010

woah. 3 more weeks to the end of holidays, and start of a brand new year. the most stressful year of any secondary school student!

i'm afraid. so are most of the other students. there's this uncertainty in me. i just hope i can work hard enough to get through safely, once and without having to repeat.

first of all, my homework is not even done! and holidays are ending already. next week has got to be study week! argh. tomorrow shall be the last day i'm going out already, since my house will be quite empty as my granparents are going overseas. so i can have peace at home! teehee.

second of all, CCA has been all over me. and now that we're having break, i should better concentrate on the books. but i'm forever worried about orientation. afraid it'll not be done in time, it'll not be perfect, and most afraid of the whole world looking down on us, looking down on me! gah. all these wishful thinking.

eh wait. 14 more days to Christmas. i want something! heh. heard my aunt will be buying for me something big, not literally though, 'cos she felt guilty when he bought for my bro an iTouch for his birthday, and will be giving money to my other bro for his birthday as well. oh well! just my luck. i hope it's something i really want! something like Fred Perry, or Vans, or iTouch, or something simple like a new watch. heh.

oh freak. hearing all my friends going overseas this holiday just make me jealous. but i'm fine in Singapore. NOT! are you kidding me?! SINGAPORE IS LIKE HELL! omg. lucky i'm going out for a visit for 4 days later in the month. at least there's a break of having the longest stay in Singapore.

i've been thinking alot. i guess i should just probably give up on you. since you've been all well with your life. i don't know how you feel anymore. i'm tired of hoping for something that's never going to happen. i hate myself for believing in something non-existent.
damn. look how far we've gone.

oh well, i better get back to watching this soccer match or i'll miss everything.

shit happens, and life has to go on.

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