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oh i'm such a gleek.

dear life, you've been well. thank you and keep up the good work.

life in school, has been terrible. more terrible than anything else.

for the past weeks, i've been buried underneath school work and all those papers preparing me for end-of-year examinations. it was kinda awesome but it was tiring as hell!

first of all, i didn't had much rest on sunday coz i simply had to play soccer in the morning when i only had three hours of sleep on that same sunday early morning. then, i procrastinated until dusk and still hadn't had my homework complete.

so, i went to school on monday morning feeling dead beat. slithered through somehow. then had a math test on tuesday, which i failed it miserably. k, not so miserable after seeing the results. twelve over twenty-five. just half mark to pass but there's no question to squeeze out from coz i didn't do the rest of it. kinda proud of it though. then came wednesday, which was kinda disappointing coz there's no p.e. but it was kinda slack coz there's no cca and a few free periods. yesterday was a blast. finally had the chance to play soccer after playing a not-so-interesting game on sunday. i vow for it to be the last coz exams are nearing. and the bio teacher didn't come so all the bio students were more than delighted. they were literally jumping for joy, including me i guess. then today, went to visit cikgu's house at night. it was awesome, with some super awesome friends. kinda wasted though, that i missed yesterday's raya session with guys. my phone went dead and they can't reach me.

so yeah. my whole week was pretty much not interesting. i was literally dead everyday. but managed to survive till now.

oh. and glee is awesome. have been catching up, since i'm kinda slow. so left with nine episodes of the first season. and the new season is already out. awesome! shall ask my bro to pass all to me!

i realised one person won't make much difference. but what happens to the 'one for all, all for one' norm? yeah, so my batt went flat and my phone went dead so you can't contact me. i was kinda disappointed, sad and angry for leaving me out. but it was truly entirely my fault. i was supposed to be at home, waiting for your call, getting ready to go out. but instead i went to play soccer and rested in school and suddenly my phone went dead. it still wasn't entirely my fault that my phone suddenly went dead. well, what's over is over and glad that you and your friends had fun and enjoyed yourselves. how i wish i could turn the clock.

is it normal for people to feel shy around the person they like? and what's the difference between like and love? and all these questions and so much more can't be answered simply by typing in google. because i don't understand and i need that one person to be a perfect example. and that's why, i need you. i can't promise if i won't break your heart, or hurt your feelings, or make you regret, but i shall try to be the best that i am. because you fell for who i am, and not for who i am not. and i lied. i don't like you. i love you.

you can't live up to everyone's expectations. but you can live up to yours.

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