decisions decisions.

So back to the boring topic, i will finally decide to let her go. After not talking to her for months it felt like there was nothing special. But letting go is not going to be easy. For the past three months i keep telling myself that i still do have feelings for her. Partly, it was true. I feel happy when i see her yet i can only sit still and do nothing. Today after what Arjun told me, it seems like my dream of her with another guy is falling through. It seemed evident as though they really like each other because that beaming smile from her face can only be seen with a special person, and that last beaming smile was last seen three months ago. So yes, today marks the end of her in my life. I will only track progress of forgetting her and letting her go from now on. She needs to find her Chinese guy. ;)

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