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have you ever felt so rejected in life that you just want to kill yourself? i mean, seeing the person you like not feeling the same and goes away with another? yeah, that's how i feel now. how i wish all of this wasn't true and it was all a dream but it doesn't seem to be that way. once, i gave up. but to think again, i shall hang on for awhile more. i kept waiting and waiting everyday for something to happen but everyday seem to pass empty. and then i start to wonder, why do i even like you? why does this happen? why do i feel this way? why and why and why but i can't seem to find the perfect reason. probably you're just not bothered with me anymore, and maybe i should start doing that too. i mean, there's no point waiting if nothing is ever going to happen right? i kept thinking what would happen if i confess and how you'd react. all my crazy imaginations ain't never going come true, although i wish it did. so, you're this one girl i've fallen in love with. and you know i like you but i just can't seem to confess. i've been wanting to ask you but i'm waiting for the right time. but the more i wait, the more i believe you're not waiting for me anymore. i understand if you're still attached with your obsession and i'm not angry about that. i just want the truth. i know you're a little confused and mixed about who. i'm ready now. i'm waiting for the truth, even though it may hurt, but i'm willing to face the fact. yes, i still want you no matter how you look, how you behave, what's your personality. the only thing that counts is your heart. all you got to do is listen close enough and your heart will provide the answer. i don't want you to regret. i just want you to be happy.

after thinking and writing so much about you, i can't think of anything else. you're all that's on my mind and will always be on my mind. how i wish saying 'i love you' was that simple.

no, think it through.

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